Thursday, August 24 ♥
Grandpa ♥
Missed call: 9.30am, tues, granny's house
I didn't pick it up as i was working and i thought it's nothing serious.
Message: 9.35am. cousin sylvia
"Dear cousin, gu ma just call from the hospital and say grandpa is in a very bad condition. Please go the hospital now."
Called mom and ask her what happen. Throughout the whole conversation with mom, she was crying and i was trying very hard to hold back my tears but to no availd i still broke down.
Went to a corner of my working place so as not to let the staff see me crying and call my cousin. My cousin also broke down after merely speaking 2 sentences and i broke down again.
Talk to the in-charge and let me off early and i quicken my pace to reach the hospital as soon as possible. Was tearing thoroughout the whole journey there and called daph that i won't be attending for lecture.
Daph talk to me throughout the whole journey and i was tearing even harder.
Reached the hospital with my cousin and the moment i saw my grandpa i was utterly sad.
He opened his eyes and i went to call him "ah gong".
Couldn't take it anymore and broke down.
Internal bleeding was found in his stomach at 2 plus. Instead of pumping out water, blood was pump out this time. 3 full liters were pump out and suddenly he went into coma.
Mom, aunties, uncles all called for him "pa" no respond. Another time again no response. Another time, no respond.
Doc, nurses, specialist all came.
They called out:
"Mr goh", no respond
"Mr goh", no respond
"Mr goh", no respond
I just hate hearing this cause the bed oppsite my grandpa also went through this before he pass away.
Machines all came and i was trying very hard to listen to the heartbeat from the machine. Doc and nurses all going in and out of the ward. Doc say the glucose level is normal and is checking whether he have any heartbeat. Eveyone just broke down and pray.
For that moment i thought i have lost him. I thought i wouldn't have the chance to get to see him opening his eyes.
One last call "Mr goh".
I don't hear any reply from my grandpa. But next i heard the doc saying "Do you know where are u?" This sentence really gave me a huge relief. They open the curtain and i see my grandpa lying there. Everyone stand around his bed and my grandpa open his eyes.
Grandpa was so weak.
He cried and he told us that he don't bear to leave us and he know that he's time is going to be up.
Doc say once my grandpa's condition reached the peak it will either go down slowly or quickly. This can last a few hours or maybe a few days.
Found a canerous turmoil in his liver and from yesterday's scan doc say it's getting bigger. Result will only be know this morning.
Yesterday's morning grandpa wanted to drink coffee. He hasn't been eating since last sun and he was also too weak to speak. Whenever he try to speak we have to put our ear near his mouth in order to know he's talking.
Doc only gave him 1/2 cup and after drinking he say he felt so comfortable and is there any bread. My grandpa loves coffee and bread and would always take them during tea breaks. For that moment i felt he is just like a kid and again bringing tears to my eyes again.
Everyday i have been reaching the hospital early in the morning and will only leave the hospital late at night as i just want to stay with him the amount of time i have.
During the night before i sleep, i will always have those flashback that i have with my grandpa.
He will call me "ah mian". I miss him calling me that. I really miss him calling me that.
It's really late now, gotta visit grandpa.
I love you grandpa
Signing off,
10:23 am ♥
